Baby Blues

So to preface this post I have to say that I adore my life. I love my little baby, I love my husband, and I really enjoy staying at home. However I do get the blues every so often & this past week has been one of those oftens. I'm sure a huge chunk of it is simply sleep deprivation. :-P My adorable little baby has turned into a little terror at night. Lately she's started thrashing around in her sleep & she'll roll over ont her tummy & then wake up screaming b/c she doesn't know how she got there or how to get back. Poor thing. Most of the time I feel sorry for her. I do have to admit there are times when I am just annoyed at her (awful right? I know she's a baby but man it's hard to feel all loving after being woken up multiple times during the night). I was actually really blessed when a bunch of Mars Hill moms told me this is totally normal. Part of me is exhausted from the lack of sleep but I think a huge part of the exhaustion is emotional ... I mean my baby is supposed to be sleeping through the night right? It's so hard as a mom not to feel guilty or stressed when things aren't happening "the way they're supposed to".


So I'm going through a lot of changes right now (kinda goes w/o saying). Through all of these changes my group of friends has drastically changed. I am blessed to have some really cool new friends but I'm in one of those moods lately where I don't want to have to meet new people! :-P Those of you who know me well know how incredibly akward I am around new people ... I never know the right thing to say ... I'm just not an outgoing person & I'm just awkward! Anyways I've just been missing old friends lately. Thankfully though I am about to be surrounded by a bunch of them. :) Can't wait to see you all soon! I just want to be around people who know that I am super goofy & that I have a really odd sense of humor (I think most people always assume that Ian is the goofy one & I'm the super serious spouse). I want someone to just come give me a hug & not have to make small talk. :-P I do have a few of those friends here, it just doesn't seem like that many right now (I left work, our small group split, we had a kid which drastically changed our hanging out patterns ...). Anyways it's probably not the baby blues, it's probably just the blues but whatever. I've just been a little blue lately. Knowing me I'll post some super happy thing tomorrow (my moods never last for long). :-P
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Hmmm... so I just realized that I never posted this. So not to suprising but my mood has swung back the other direction again. I'm still awkward around new people, and I still can't wait to see my old friends but I am much more excited about getting to know the new people in my life. I have been richly blessed. I love my old friends & I miss you all tremendously but my new friends are pretty dang cool as well & I'm starting to get more comfortable around them. Also I'm starting to realize that just b/c I don't see all of my "old friends" as often as I would like that they're still there ... it just takes more work now to keep in touch. Thank you all (old friends, and new friends) just for loving me & putting up w/ me during my ups & downs. I appreciate you all more then you will ever know. :)